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How could I not know why he took those concubines? Although I knew, but seeing them still made my heart feel a twinge. Is it hurt or is it admitting to the fact that an emperor will never have only one wife? No matter if he really wants it or if he really wants to keep his promise to me, for power heβll need them. He may say that he wonβt touch them, but those concubinesβs fathers will pressure him after some time. Then heβll have no choice, but to comply. Itβs ironic how an emperor doesnβt even have the freedom to sleep with whoever he wants. He is no different from a prisoner. He is only living in a golden cage. No matter how beautiful the palace is, it’s still a cage.
Why do so many people want to be the emperor when they can almost do nothing? Is that seat really so tempting? I can understand, but at the same time I canβt understand. And is my seat also tempting? I think it must be. Itβs like drugs. Once you have tasted it you can get away from it, even though you know itβs bad for you. The power that this seat brings must be really tempting like a drug. I must be really careful now. I canβt lose this seat yet. Iβm seated at the highest seat that a woman can wish to sit on, but this seat brings much unhappiness. I really want to forsake this seat and go into hiding. But everything under the sky is Xuan Chenβs. Where can I hide?
I sat by the window. Flower petals flew into the room. Itβs autumn again. I watched those petals flew. I laughed to myself. Since when did I become like this? Since when did I begin to lose my smile? Was it since the time I met Xuan Chen? Was it after the wedding? Was it when I lost Sweet Corn? Will I be able to go back to my old self? Do I want to go back to my old self? Since when did I start to think so much?
A flower petal landed on my hand through the window where I sat. I looked at it. These flowers are still the same as the year before. They are still as beautiful and unchanging. But I have changed. I don’t look at them with the same innocence anymore. So even though they haven’t changed, in my eyes they have changed.
Iβve really grown old in these past two years. Itβs already been two years since that fated meeting. Sometime, I regretted ever meeting Xuan Chen. But even if I didnβt meet him, Iβll eventually become the emperorβs wife. Maybe the monk was right. Iβm really fated to be his wife. But why didnβt he also predict that Iβll have such a life? If I had known, I would have run away. Who am I kidding? Iβll never be able to abandon my mother and leave her to be beheaded. Besides, my fate is already written by the Heavens. The Heaven is really cruel to me.
The night wind was cold like my heart. It entered the room and touched me. I closed the window and ordered some maids to prepare a bath. I looked carefully at them. Which one of them is a spy? Are all of them a spy? People in the palace are really great actors. They can smile at you while plotting to get rid of you.
My head hurts from all this thinking. How did Xuan Chen survive in this hell? Iβm really beginning to admire him. Heβs a really scary person. Someone who can live in the palace without anyone to protect him, must be someone with an impressive mind. Iβm beginning to think that I donβt know him at all. Did I marry a stranger? What a question? Of course I married a stranger. We were betrothed since birth. Itβs only that I knew him a little before my wedding. But that Xuan Chen wasnβt the emperor. That Xuan Chen didnβt have so many secrets. That Xuan Chen wonβt sacrifice our love for power.
βWhat are you thinking about?β
I was so deep in thoughts that I didnβt hear him coming. I looked at him without expression. I ceased to be amazed that he can do things that ordinary people can’t, like entering the palace at night. Even more, entering the empress’ chamber without anyone noticing. Really impressive.
βAre you angry that I came without being invited?β
βSince when did you even bother about my opinion? You come and go as you like.β
βHaha, youβre right. But I still want to get your permission.β
βWhat permission should I give you? Permission for entering the empressβ chamber at night?β
βThat would be nice. What about permission to enter your heart? β
βStop joking. Besides, my heart is already gone.β
βGone to that emperor of yours? Or gone to the grave together with your child? You canβt lie really well, you know? Deep in your soul, you still love him. But it doesnβt matter. I can wait. Patience is one of my good points.β
βYes, youβve already been so patience; waiting so many years for the opportunity to take the throne. Why do you want to throne?β
βBecause it was mine from the start. Some thieves stole it. It needs to go back to its rightful owner.β
βDo you know that itβs really difficult to sit in that seat?β
βAre you worried for me?β
βCan you be more serious?β
βI know. Seeing you, I know. Seeing how sad and unhappy you are, I know. Life in the palace must be really bad. But I still want it. Do you know why? From the beginning, I want it because it’s rightfully mine, but now I want it because if I have it I can have you.β
βWhat are you talking about? Stop speaking nonsense.β
βIβve never been so serious in my life before. Iβve thought about it when you left that temple. If I escape with you, no matter where we go, heβll still find us. Besides, if I leave with you, youβll be treated like someone who committed adultery. Youβll be hunted down by the empress dowagerβs people. The emperor wonβt be able to protect you. You wonβt be able to take revenge and will suffer a painful death. But if I become the emperor, I can protect you. I can take revenge for you. Iβll make all your wishes come true.β
βYun Wen, Iβ¦β¦β
βThe emperor has arrived,β a eunuch announced.
Comments: The long waited chapter is here ^^. Hope you enjoy it.
Thank you so much!!!
Thank you very much!!!! Can’t wait for the next chapter =)
Thank you so much!!! πππ
It is so sad……yun wen says that he wants to be king for her but at the end he will, like xuan chen, slowly be corrupted …..thank you for the chapter! π
Since you have updated this chapter, do you have the ending planned out?
Thanks for the update. Thought you have given up on this project. I feel so sad for her. Xuan Chen and now Yun Wen. All end up disappointing her. Does this have a HE?How many more before the end?
i’ve been checking the emperor’s wife index literally every day, for any update. thanks alot and take time too.
Thanks for the chapter!
Hi! It’s been a long time that I thought you have given up…luckily not…that’s why, despite the emperor’s love being in question now, I hope that the empress does not give up on him…YW loves her now but when/if he gets the throne he might end up just like XC now…thanks a lot for this new chapter….
Oh my God thank you so much for the chapter I’ve been checking on your page everyday seeing if you have updated a new chapter I’m so glad you did. I feel so bad empress because the two people that she has fallen in love with has to be associated with the throne so she can not truly be happy!!!! π I hope you keep it up thank you so much for the chapter cannot wait for the next chapter.
I’m conflicted….I like both male leads…Xuan Chen lost me when he try to threaten her if she leaves him…I still like him but yun wen is quite nice too…. Who will she choose?? I really hope she gain happiness. π and thank you for the great work!!! This story is a roller coster of emotions x-x
Hope she finds happiness within herself. No need for XC or YW.
Love the story! Hope you continue writing this.
I finish all the chapters in one sitting. I enjoy your story and it is better than some of the publish novels I have read. I’ll be waiting for updates!!πβ€πβ€
Im flatteredπ
How many chapter of this story?
dont know yet. im currently too busy to continue to write it π
Please contact me on e-mail address ploy_1993 _1_27@ hotmail.com because I want to translate your story into thai with right way.
Please contact me on e-mail address ploy_1993 _1_27@ hotmail.com because I would like to translate your story into thai with right way.
I just want to know if she will end up with Yu Wen cuz that will be heaven. I ship them.
Hi, I really like the story and its been such a while since you updated, so I was wondering if you are going to continue this because I really want to know what happens next and finish this story! It’s so good! π Thanks.